Death by Elixir

About a week ago there had been an a huge tragedy in Punjab ,more then 100 people have died since then and some are still in suffering.
Reason drug,untested,unapproved medicine to all those heart patients.Now I know how medicine is important for any chronic patient whether it be heart disease or cancer.This incident happened 1 week after my chemotherapy was stopped now the thought that occurs to me is what if it was me among the deceased because even i was advised some of the drugs included in the list. 
A simple medicine such as aspirin caused death of 100s.this medicine is like elixir of life for all the heart patient,it decreases the consistency of blood hence less chance of a stroke,all those who died were heart patient.What will happen to there families,there children.Only ALLAH knows 
For now I can only pray 

Flight without wings

This is a special blog post i wanted to do.The house i live in,we have rented a room on the top floor.A family moved in 15 days ago.Father,mother,a son and two daughter.Their daughter  passed away yesterday.
The reason why i am doing this blog is that that little girl suffered before she died which should not have happened.She was in the ICU for 10 days and since last 2 day the doctors were just pumping air in here,she even had a surgery of here lungs and she was only 4 years old.Her dead body came back to our house,my mother called me to came and see her but honestly I could not make myself go. I was scared.Later my mama told me that her arms were all blue because of all the ivs she was given.Saddest part about this is that the mother has lost her mental  stability because she lost two daughter before her,she was acting as if nothing has happened she kept laughing and taking to everyone in a good mood it was really sad.
THE REASON for the death it cousin marriage in Pakistan.we never care to raise such issue but deep down we know that thing have to be changed. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEE :)

ITS 23RD JAN again and its........................ my birthday I turn 23  tomorrow.

Theses birthday's are very special to me ,when my first birthday came during my treatment i was a bit worried.Its was a strange feeling what if something happens and I don't make it.. or I end up in the emergency room for a low cell count,but  I am having my 2nd birthday as a cancer fighter and it feels good to be with my family I wanted to upload some of my childhood pics i found some that are of my first birthday but guess what my scanner stopped working  so only got one will do the others later.I was really Really scared this time,my dad actually cried the other day remembering it :( so i am really blessed by ALLAH TALLA  he has given me this strength to fight my cancer and live this life even if I have ticking time bomb inside me.

Remember me in your prayers followers

LOVE ALL.

Happy to have my hairs back!

i did not want to do a post today but then i wanted to share this.when my chemo started i lost all my hairs first the hairs on my head came out slowly they took time but caused a lot of mine then after some time all the hairs on my body were also gone,now my hairs have grown back but still sometime the pain comes back and it really hurts .I guess the side effects will never leave me.SO if there is anyone near you who has gone through this TAKE CARE OF THEM

All's Well That goes well

Here i am its been a long day.As i had my appointment with my oncologist today i will it went quit well.at least no sugery or chemo for some time they say my body has grwon week because of the chemotherapy i had over the past two years.I physically dont look week but internally i know my guts must be screaming so i am relaxed for some time now for some time.But i will have to continue on my oral chemo pills Thalidomide which has its own side effects.But happy to have some time for my self and also to get my hairs back lol.

Dr.Amir Ali Syed and my brothers birthday

ok as i said in my previous post it was my brothers birthday yesterday as well a meeting with a surgeon so here it is.............I am not having a third surgery phewww :) i cant decide whether to be happy about this or feel bad coz i know surgery is important in my case but still i cant go through i more.Dr.Amir Ali was impressive nice doctor,listened to me looked at all my reports did not just made up his decision.now meeting tomorrow again with my oncologist going to decide what chemo to contunue with.

     SHUKAT KHANUM MEMORIAL CANCER HOSPITAL AND RESEREACH CENTER
So the happy part my "BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY" he turned 18 love him and wish him all the best for his future.we had shawarma(arabian dish) and i also had a burger yummy.
I am in a really bad mood today dont know why.so next post tomorrow.(INSHALLAH)

Praying i get to see one more birthday

Its late i know but what can i do i wanted to start it with bang.so here i am writting for the first time.its a new year and i am happy to have made it this far.Its been a hell of a week first the ultrasound then the MRI and tomorrow a meeting with a surgeon.Its going to be my borthers birthday tomorow as well lets hope i get a good news.